i just had one of the weirdest conversations ever in my life.
i was sitting sa batuhan sa corner ng mcdo, satisfying my craving for balot when a cono-looking dude sat down beside me. he lit a stick of boro lights, then offered me one. sabi ko, not today, thanks. he chuckled, tas we're off to our own worlds ulet.
after a few seconds of getting his nicotine fix, he turned to me and asked, mukha ba akong bakla? naisip ko, this is the most original pick up line ive heard. yak assuming. hehe.
sabi ko, aside from the hairdo, hindi naman. tawa sya.
silence.
then he asked me, ano magiging reaction mo if i tell you na i get attracted to guys din?
looked at him ng nakataas isang kilay, and said, eh so? yun ka eh. kebs lang.
guy: bat parang normal lang para sayo yun?
ajinbu: let's just say, marami akong close friends na ganyan. ano ba problema?
guy: la lang. confused ako. ngayon ko lang to naexperience eh. i mean, di naman ako galing sa exclusive skul, and as far as i can remember, i've only liked girls. . .until recently lang when i met this guy na friend ng kabarkada ko. . .
ajin: cutie ba?
guy: di naman. ewan. di ko lam pano tumingin ng cute na guy eh. ang weird lang kasi kapag nakakasama ko sya, iba yung feeling. kinikilabutan nga ako everytime naiisip ko eh.
ajin: kilabot o kilig?
guy: yak. ewan ko. pero nakakabother na talaga yung feeling eh. nakakadiri kasi hindi naman ako bakla at ayoko maging bakla. gets mo ba? naiinis ako!
ajin: eh di hindi ka bakla. baka bi ka. u open to having relationhsips with guys ba?
guy: anong difference nun? ganun din kaya yun! di ko pa iniisip yan. at ayoko isipin
ajin: jan ka mali. isipin mo na lang, may scale na 1-7. 1 being straight ng sobra, then yung 7 yung super gay, na same sex lang talaga ang gusto. maybe ur somewhere in 2 or 3. lam mo yun, naaattract pero di gusto makipag-on.
guy: may ganun? imbento mo lang ba yan?
ajin: di ako. well anyways, di importante who made it. di naman yun ung isyu dito eh. so, so you agree na nandun ka sa 2 or 3?
guy: ewan ko. siguro that's one way of explaining this. pero ang hirap eh. baka layuan ako ng mga kabarkada ko if they found out. dba? sabihin nila may malisya rin ako sa kanila.
ajin: ay, closed minded???? haay nako, eto lang masasabi ko sayo, think about how u really feel. and what you really want. wag mo na muna isipin yung iisipin ng iba. mababaliw ka lang pag ganun eh. kilalanin mo muna sarili mo. tapos deal with them pag comfortable ka na kung sino ka. kasi pag sure ka na about urself, madali mo na lang mahahandle yun eh.
guy: damn. onga. sige. . .salamat ha. astig ka. sure ka ayaw mo yosi?
ajin: deh, yoko. quitting na eh. thanks anyways.
guy: ok. gudluck. thanks ulet. una na ko.
then he threw his stick na away and i was left there, smiling, dahil feeling ko nakatulong ako ng malaki sa pagcome out nya sa world. hehehe. weird.